Yesterday, around 6 am was the anniversary
with the help of the
nurse in the COVID unit,
I said Goodbye via the phone
to my dear Sweet Mr G
who was actually non-responsive
as they had just removed his ventilator.
One of the nightmares that still haunts me
was not being allowed to be by his side
holding his hand
I was recovering from COVID so I felt no danger
and couldn't understand my denial.
I will always wonder if our loved ones that left us this way,
would have lived longer or survived
had we been allowed to be by their side,
or did they feel abandoned and give up?
Its been a very long sad year full of nightmares,
and thus, little sleep.
I miss him deeply and still have a hard time catching my breath.
during his last days and moments.
His funeral and burial was on D-Day.
Joy, it is so heartbreaking to lose the one you love most in the way you did. Covid took away so much of what we embraced in life and often took for granted. Mr. G. is always with you, but not in the same ways as before. Be strong and trust that life is still full of blessings waiting for you to find. <3
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